Day 1 - Other SP writers haven't noticed my arrival

Okay, so this the first real day of being a full-time self-published author. I have slipped into the room and no one has seemed to notice.  

Thank God.

That means, they are busy, busy working on their own journey.

Goals for today:

1) Write, at least, 500 words.  This has been the hardest part. I have been so down about the publishing world and my writing that I have not been working on anything. That changes today!!

2) Found cover for this book.  Start saving to buy.

3) Check out blogs and promo spots to get the word out when it's time to release.  Start list.

I LOVE lists.  They help so much when I need to keep things straight. 

This feels so much better than worried about who should I send the book to, or how long it should be to fit, or OH, GOD, I can't put that in the book type deal.

Runs off, cackling madly...

Rough Decision

Some things you automatically know is the right option to choose.

Some are more difficult.

Some seem impossible while others are super easy.

I have been struggling for the last few years with my writing.

Truly struggling to the point of asking why I even try.

So, two days ago, I received a rejection from a major romance publisher.  On a submission I'd been waiting to hear about for the last nine months.

Was it a shock?

No, not really.  I had assumed, whether subconsciously or not, that the publisher would not want the book.  Still, there was a message of hope there that for once, I'd written something that 'fit'.

It didn't.

Was I upset?

No.

Was I angry?

Not really, except for the fact I had to wait 9 months to hear from them and that was only because I contacted them on the status of the submission.

If they didn't want the book, why not let me know sooner?  Why tie me and the story up for almost a year?

So, as with all things, there are new beginnings when old things end.

My new beginning is a very conscious decision to go strictly self published.

I am going to start putting out stuff I have held on to for a while in hopes of finding a publisher where the work would 'fit'.

It was a hard decision.  A scary decision but one I am really excited about.

My life, my writing, my effort and my timeline.

No more waiting.

Wondering.

Depression.

Doubt.

I will do the best I can with the talents I am blessed with and move forward.